I bend so I don't BREAK

 "You don't always need a plan. Sometimes you just need to breathe, trust, let go and see what happens." ~Mandy Hale

I have been MIA for a really long time but I haven't had anything to blog about.  I have had the time of my life this summer just letting go and being me!  Vacation was the escape I needed to forget about everything going on back home.  Vacation also allowed me to see that I need to start living NOW instead of just existing in a life I'm not truly happy living in.  I have Mexico, Tampa and Vegas to thank for opening up my heart to many new ideas and allowing me to see that my dreams can certainly come a reality.

I could get into the dirty details about why I feel so unhappy but I have decided to focus on the good things in my life instead of all the negative junk.  It takes a strong person to move forward when life is not going as planned...it takes a stronger person to stand up and start a brand new path.  Thankfully, the last few years I've been building up this inner layer of toughness, a will to never quit and the ability to work for what I want.  I will not give up, I will not settle...

The next 8 months I will be learning everything I can about yoga.  I'm all signed up for the yoga training program starting on Aug 22.  I am super nervous about the commitment, the money and if this is the right path to take.  BUT I have learned that if you stay in one place for to long you don't grow.  I need some kind of growth in my life so this is the perfect time for this program to begin.

I have chosen to be happy because it is good for my mental, physical and emotional health. I have chosen to pour my heart and soul with as many good things as possible.  If someone or something makes me smile and laugh..I'm going to want more of it.  I will start painting, learning photography, giving more and of course learn more about this yoga stuff.

My future depends on what I do in the present.  I will not break, I will continue to bend with the storm life gives me.  What I do know is that next year my life will not look the same as it does today.  I hope you will follow along in my journey of finding the path to my NEW happiness. I will be honest and raw about all my emotions.  My life has been one long roller coaster ride :( My ride seems a little broken but my will to get to the top is stronger than ever.  Failure is the thing that keeps me moving forward.... someday I'll look back at this time in my life with a smile.

If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude.---Maya Angelou